Fuck me

When she asked me if my heart still beating for her I just aswered with a no moving my head side to side, but deeply inside I knew that wasn't true, I felt embarassed, I have shame of myself, but I still smiling sometimes when I remember cute things that she used to say or do, (poor pathetic guy) Is just that it's been almost like 3 years and I keep thinking about her, I still imaginating stuff, I still making plans about how should I invite her to go out, about how or what can I do to make her pay atention at me again. That's why I always keep saying that I haven't grown old a bit, because I do not feel mature enough to move away, to continue with my life I still thinking that she is my soulmate. Unfuckinbelievable!